This cartoon pretty much sums up my legal career. I couldn’t understand what was happening. I was supposed to be clever (I have a first class Masters degree for God’s sake!), I was working long hours, barely seeing my kids who at that point were 5 and 1, pouring everything I had into trying to make my legal career work.
The problem was, I was pouring from an empty cup. By the time I left the law, my chronic fatigue (ME) had flared up, I was suicidally depressed, I had raging insomnia, I had severe tonsillitis and couldn’t speak, and I had plantar fasciitis in both feet and was struggling to walk. I went to the doctor, who put me on 3 different types of tablets which made me feel worse. The physio who treated my feet told me ‘It’s a good job you’re a human because if you were a horse we’d just put you out of your misery’.
It was only after several months spent recovering that I could accurately analyse what had happened. I was just fundamentally in the wrong career. It didn’t matter how clever I was, how much effort I put in, or how many hours I worked. I was pushing with all my might against a door that opened in the opposite direction.
The solution was a lot of rest, space, soul searching, diligent self-care, and the bravery to stop going in the wrong direction and step into what I was meant to be doing. I love what I do now and will never look back.
Does this resonate for you? Have you ever tried to power through, ignoring your body’s signals, thinking that more effort will get you the results you crave? It doesn’t work, does it?
I’m 2 years up the path in the right direction now, and the doors open much more easily 😀
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Jen Harle, Reiki Master Teacher and Founder of Real Life Reiki